Knowing that the Lord is my comfort and my strength is found in Him is all that is getting me through at this point. I went Tuesday and did my glucose 3 hour test and found out yesterday that I did not pass. My fasting time was normal but my 1hour, 2 hour and 3 hour levels were all elevated, meaning I have gestational diabetes. SCARED TO DEATH.
Everyone tries to keep reassuring me that this is not uncommon, but for me it is. I didnt have this issue with Gracie or Jake so why now? I thought I was playing the same way with Sophie as I did with my other two pregnancies but my body doesnt seem to want to work the same this go around.
I have cried all night and I dont really know why. I cant make it go away, I cant take it back or undo it, I can manage it though. I go Monday to see a specialist who will help me with checking my blood and all and I also go to my regular doctor for my normal appointment.
When it rains it poors and this year it seems like I have encountered flood after flood.
The year started with my granddaddy getting really sick and finally got to a point where I couldnt take care of them by myslef so they had to move and my mawmaw is so unhappy, then my cousin being diagnosed with cancer, who later lost his fight in September. Sam's dad had a heart attack in May and then a quadruple bypass surgery, our uncle is having a pacemaker put in this morning and my granddaddy is have a permanant cathader put in today also. This has been one of the hardest years stress wise that I remember, This baby is going to be so strong with all the stress we have been through this year.
Things are just crazy and I am overwhelmed at this time.
Up side we did have a really good Halloween and the kids looked so cute in their costumes.
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