It was a long day, trying to get my head back in the swing of things. I have been working from home since I had Sophie, but working at home is totally different, I might like it betterbc I get to do that in my pj's - haha.
It really has been a great day. I only called and checked on Sassy twice today, I think I did pretty good.
I did miss her a whole bunch, but I know that she is in the second best place other than home and that is with her Granny and Pawpaw. I am so blessed to have the wonderful in-laws that I have. My mother-in-law has kept all three of my children and is more than glad to do so. I couldnt have asked for any better in-laws than the ones I have.
She woke up about 1:30 this morning ready to eat, She acted like she didnt want to go back to sleep. She just laid in my arms and smiled and looked around. I started to pray that the Lord would just let her go to sleep bc I was worried about how tired I would be for my first day back, then something hit me, I need to enjoy these times of just me and her and the complete quiet. I remember sitting there thinking back to when Gracie was this size and wishing she would hurry up and sleep all night, then hurry up and sit up, and walk and talk. Sometimes I would give my right arm if Gracie could be this size again and I had enjoyed all these little moments that at the time seem so tiring and bothersome. I stopped being tired and just said Thank you Lord for this time with her. If I could just hold that moment in my head of me and her on the couch while everyone else is sleeping and I could just etch into my brain her sweet little face and the smiles she gave me at 1:30 in the morning. I know these days will be over before I know it and I will look back and wonder where they went. So im trying to enjoy my sleepless nights with her and that little bit of by ourself time. Just me and her and the Lord and all the angels that she smiles at.
So my first day back at work was blessed and it started very early.
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