On my way back

Didnt realize that so much time had passed since I last logged onto my blog.

Hope everyone has been doing well and the this new year is showing you many blessings.

Our new year is much the same as the end of last year, lots of sickness and sadness so far, but God has a plan and he will use all this time to prosper us and prepare us for future things that are coming. Strength comes from trials, and triumph over many struggles.

Most of you know Sophie had surgery the end of last year, since then we have not been to church to worship in a phyiscal church building. Not because of lack of trying, just obstacles in our way. Mostly sickness, once the sick person gets well, then its time for another to be sick. Just last weekend I was sick with a bug, then Sam got it - so far no sick kids.

I have really started struggling with the life outside of church. Not that my faith is shrinking or going away, but missing the church family, hearing his words. But more than that the thought that people think that Ive stepped out of the church. Its not that I dont want to be there, just hasnt been possible for me to be there.

But "Where two or more are gathered He is there" I dont have to sit in a building to worship my Lord, I dont have to sing hymns or wear my best clothes. God has been opening my eyes in other ways. In a ministering way. I dont consider myself a minister at all.

There is so much struggling going on around me. I know several people who are having marriage struggles, going through a divorce or holding on so tight trying not to get to that point. I see and hear so much hurt in the voices around me.

It seems like years ago that I to faced these struggles but stop and put it on a calendar it really wasnt that long ago. Ever question God as to why we have to go through things of such hardness and sadness. As to what point does it have to make at all? I did. During those struggles in our marriage I would get so mad, why do I have to go through this, why to these struggles have to be in my path.

I have in the past few weeks talked to a couple ladies that are facing very similar circumstances as I found myself in just a few years ago. All I can tell them is that it will get better, bc God said so. They will make it through and be stronger bc of it.

The journey that Sam and I took in our marriage was horribly rough. Wouldnt wish that on anyone, but for me if given the opportunity to go back an undo that time of struggle I WOULDNT IN A MILLION YEARS. I wouldnt change taking that journey for nothing, I would maybe change the way I handled myself at times and try to make better decisions along the way, but the journey totally changed our marriage for the better.

God doesnt promise us an easy ride but he does promise that he will never leave or forsake us. He brought us through so much.

During this time of talking to these ladies I have realized that all things (AS HE SAYS) are for his purpose.

I hate seeing anyone sad, and I have found myself even falling into a moment of reflection and at times feel sadness in my heart bc of the pain that was felt so long ago.

I think maybe we need to find time in prayer for marriages. Such a special union between two people.